goodkitty45: hi from etown ky lusive: Hello goodkitty45: how are u lusive: I'm well and you? goodkitty45: i am 48 y/o bif goodkitty45: fine lusive: Bif? goodkitty45: yes bi sexual female lusive: *L* Oh ok goodkitty45: i know oh yuck lusive: Huh? Why would I yuck it? goodkitty45: some people say it lusive: I thought it was for "black independant female" *L* goodkitty45: no goodkitty45: where do u live lusive: Madisonville goodkitty45: a couple of hours away lusive: Yeah something like that. goodkitty45: i am also into bdsm lusive: Cool. goodkitty45: what are you into lusive: It all depends on my mood. *L* I'm into way too many things. goodkitty45: bdsm? lusive: On the occasion goodkitty45: r u top or bottom lusive: most of the time a bottom goodkitty45: me 2 lusive: That's cool goodkitty45: a month ago Master had one of his female swubs pick me up. apparently she was a good girl an she took me to be pierced i had no choice goodkitty45: subs lusive: What did you get pierced? goodkitty45: she picked where i got pierced both nipples both outer lips an hood at same time lusive: Wow that's a lot of piercings to have at once goodkitty45: like i said i didnt have any choice done in a public tattoo palor goodkitty45: that was her reward goodkitty45: what does ur Master do to u for entertainment lusive: I don't have a master goodkitty45: then when you bottom to someone lusive: It hasn't happened in many years. goodkitty45: are u married lusive: No goodkitty45: are u bi lusive: Yep goodkitty45: living with someone lusive: a roommate goodkitty45: do u have any sex lusive: Yes goodkitty45: my Master /hubby controls all with me lusive: *nod* As is generally the case in a D/s relationship goodkitty45: sometime i have to do it with strange men lusive: Does this make you happy? goodkitty45: i have no choice lusive: That wasn't my question goodkitty45: i guess lusive: Well, if you have to guess then it doesn't. Have you expressed this to your husband? goodkitty45: many years ago i expressed some concern an said i was confused lusive: See, I'm not a good bottom because I wouldn't do it. goodkitty45: i have been marked i am slave /slaves dont have choices like bottoms lusive: Sweetheart, slavery is illegal in the United States, and I know the psychological implications of you acting out. It would be your failure as a "slave" but if you don't WANT to sleep with these strange men, you don't have to. goodkitty45: i dont hjave fantasy's he has made my sex life great goodkitty45: have lusive: You should have fantasies. That's a part of being human. *L* I have a great sex life and I still have fantasies. goodkitty45: 4 some reason i dont lusive: I have fantasies of having sex with Eric Bana all the time, it can't happen, but I still have fantasies of it. goodkitty45: we are looking 4 some subs lusive: Well, I wouldn't be a good sub. I wouldn't let someone pierce me in places I didn't want to be pierced and I wouldn't have sex with a strange man to satisfy someone else's urge to watch. goodkitty45: actually most of time he does not watch lusive: I still wouldn't do it. I don't want to have sex with someone I'm not going to. And if it occurs it will no longer be sex, it'll be rape. goodkitty45: my i say something between us lusive: Ok goodkitty45: when i walk in a room ordered to strip an then bent over or what ever an get it dry an hard that is very exciting to me sorry lusive: *L* It's ok that it is exciting. And to me that is exciting (not the dry part) when I'm alone with the one I WANT to be with. But from a stranger....nah, that'll have me stabbing people. goodkitty45: difference in folks i guess lusive: Yeah it is. Like I said I'm not a good sub. lusive: good luck in your search goodkitty45: ty it can be male or female lusive: *nod* ok. lusive: Well, I'm going to get going. I need to clean my kitchen and start getting geared up for work. goodkitty45: bye hun
