I want to kill myself, because I hate my thought processes, and my life is a waste anyway...
.....I'm stupid, I can't do anything right, I can't express my feelings.
I've hurt alot of people (not you guys)
so, just remember.....
.........there's not even a word to describe, my wretched, pathetic, burned up brain....you could go on about my substandardness foor the rest of your lives....and never scrath the surface.
I'm owned....
a piece of chemical hazardous waste...OWNS me.
....... I'm as worthless, as you say, and then some.
and it'll only get worse.
keep in mind, I'm not threating suicide.
...........................I'm just entertaining the thought. suzette is wide awake for NYE and since I can't fed her she threatens me......................and agrees with you whole heartedly.
alot of people would find peace. ...................in fact EVERYONE would.
I talk too much.
gods suz is still the strong one but she's not as loud as suzette ........I'll be ok.
I was justl letting you know you have a lot more things to point out that are actually TRUE about me.....
I'm fucked up.
......but I never bashed anyone, or tried to make myself seem "better" than anyone...
and I did'nt invite you here thrash did.
.....this is his house, and arcane, has been here a DAYUM loooong time. and she keeps methology running silently.... ......but she's been here and there....longer than any of you.
.......arcane13.........if you did not already know....is an admin at AM just like thrash and asp.
because speed freaks are'nt computer geeks. .......they do it out of love.
Not only is arcane is ACTUALLY a loved one of a meth addict as well.
....she also put in the AM heading, the chatbox, she designed and made all the link buttons across the top of the board. .............and fixes shit that breaks and teaches me how to do it.
............ don't think for a second she don't know what's going on.