wrote ... Suz, from what I hear, you burned way too many of your own friends, and for what?
define "burned"
...I define it as someone who either, takes your possessions, or love and/or disrespects you, and insults you , and everyone around them in your home. ......and betrays personal confidences between you and them, or them and someone else.....from private forums.....and ruins the harmony, and ease of expression. ......then wants their posts deleted because they're afraid someone will pull it out on em.,
I never did that. .....you got a warped idea of what burning someone is.
*I* was burned.
.....if thrash told me to can it, I fucking would.
wrote ... I pity you.
......at least I got meds. I pity you....you got issues.
wrote ... All they wanted to do was put their heads together, confide in each other, and figure out what the TRUTH
no they did'nt ........ I got the threads, no one ws intrested in finding the truth.
AND I've tried sharing info , you know, to find the truth?
and beligerence, and judgements on me is what I get.
wrote ... Obviously, you don't know the meaning of that word, along with the meaning of loyalty.
nope, you're misinformed again. .......I'm loyal and I'm truthful.
tell me ONE lie I told you. ........show me ONE CONFIDENCE I betrayed "to win"
show me one, mean spirited attack on anyons character.
the truth is, I never saw anyone hurt anyone on my board until this. ....I never claimed to be an investigator. I never worried about the validity of what peeps tell me. ....I was just having fun, and dropping all the "physical" for the "vibe" "spirit"or color I see when I read you. .....the rest is unimportant.
you're programming was not completed or something.
I also have the balls to post as myself.
.....you idea of truth: what your friends say is .....IS. your idea of loyalty: agreeing with whatever theory a "friend" can dream up.
......kinda like the me talkin' to bella.
hahaha! ......you sure you are'nt a burned out crack whore too?
my idea of loyalty? .....there's been plenty of disagreements I've had with people, but I never had to pull out extra insults of confidences to "win" ....my idea of "winning" is being able to keep your friend, even if you agree to disagree.
my idea of truth? ......is what my eyes see.
and the truth is.. ...I never saw bella hurt anyone ON MY BOARD.
you had to call her, or IM her. ........and I did'nt get to SEE it go down MYSELF.
wrote ... You are the one who will lose in the end.
Hopefully I WILL loose.
........sadly, this showcased You're behavior.....not mine. Now... I know who has grace, patience, open minds, and can have a discussion w/o throwing darts.
you only get a handful of friends. .................so I know who that handful is.
the rest, I'd just assume they take what I taught em, and I take what they taught me. ...and pursue own own destinies, and not look back.
wrote ... The sad thing is, most everyone was very worried about how YOU were going to take the news because you were so close to Melissa. They were worried about YOU! And you tossed them all out like yesterday's garbage!
NO one was worried about me besides the peeps that worried about me. .......and I talk to them everyday.
I never tossed anyone out. .......even tho they destroyed my beautiful creation, by THEIR behavior. NOT bellas.
Second:
wrote ... I don't need you to tell me when I can or cannot be excused, fuck you very much! I believe I am plenty old enough to make my own decisions and don't need to ask permission from some burned out crack whore.
It seems like I could get some kinda slack, I'm a burned out crack whore ...I I did'nt even know it! that explains alot!
.....why argue with a stupid retarded fuck machine that runs on 20 second highs? ....I'm trash, throw me out like yesterdays garbage.
And Third:
wrote ... Whichever of the *suz-groupies* that wants to place blame on the victims who sent money to Melissa? Take a long hard look in the mirror....IF you can stand looking at yourself for that long! You need some serious help! I don't believe AM can provide the type of professional help you need. A heart transplant should be first on the agenda, because obviously you don't have one. Then maybe you should get to a dentist!
take your own advice.
wrote ... And this is my last visit, as I have no time for used up ass wipes!
THE PARTY STARTS NOW! ...bye! *waves*
wrote ... I honestly thought this would be a better discussion than a poo flinging contest from suz and her followers who claim had NO time for this type of bullshit on her own site!
I have more time than tolerance for this shit. .............TSI loves it, they'll raise hell all day if you want.
I don't want people afraid to post on my recovery board. ........ya know how some peeps do N.A.?
and some don't?
......well, maybe my board, and style, just is'nt the answer for YOU.
but it helps so many more people.... ..............for you to convince me it's worthless. it's gonna HAVE to outweigh the FLOOD of pms I get from people I helped. ...that's not an exaggeration.
there's too many people that USE it as a recovery board, to convince me otherwise.
if bella actually DID something there... ...I'd ban her.
it was whoever IMed her or phoned her, that made the choice to do that.
wrote ... If you want information on what is going on? Find a different way to go about getting it.... Like.. watch the news, dumb ass! It will all come out soon enough. I hear there are plenty of TV stations, news stations, news papers, talk shows and magazines that are knocking on doors and ringing telephones to get this story.
I don't need information. ...I'm completely filled in, thanks to you.
wrote ... As for sending your groupies and worshipers to Marie's site? Don't bother, they won't get in!
marie wrote me, and asked that I REMOVE some of the things theat peeps like guestwho, and mary mary wrote on my board.
.......I've never been to her web site. but I found the posts and did what she asked.
I told thrash, and HE spoke to marie HIMSELF. ......marie then expressed a need for a place to vent, and SHE and THRASH.....agreed it would be good for her, and appropriate for tsi. .
wrote ... Besides, everyone knows that you, suz, are doing nothing but calling Melissa and telling her bullshit stories. She knows exactly what is going on. Her ass is going to the slammer, that's what!
wow, you KNOW that ey? ......another crackwhore burn out moment.
THATS A GOD DAMN LIE.
LIAR
YOU either LIED. .......or you DON'T HAVE THE FACTS ......again!
...everything your anonymous ass says to me now, will be considered a "theory"....not a fact.
I don't even have a home phone. ......the "suz groupies" CALL ME AT WORK. I have to answer the phone at work!
........she has all the info she wants, its all over the Internet. she does'nt need me.
she tells me whats going on..with HER.
....and now, instead of sharing what I learned, to find the truth.
I keep it to myself.....or people think I sit around talking to bella all the time.
....Like I don't fucking have shit to do.
everything you accused me of, I counter accuse you.
......I would never think to accuse anyone, much less DO IT.
but you go ahead and dream your dreamy little dreams.
wrote ... PS. Thrash? This post was in no way directed toward you. I appreciate you allowing me to have my say on your site. God Bless you and you have a wonderful evening!
it's more like an insane asylum, and I'm the worst.
......again, you can't please everyone, I ain't worried about it. I'll please the people I can, and talk to addicts on their level.
that's recovery.
.....everything you said to hurt me, I've heard so often before, by people closer to me....
I'm a methwhore,crackhead, failure, pitiful, waste for what fucking talent ........ I was givin' and what little I have left. One more dope run, I'll get the guts to pull the trigger.
........I feel the need to get certain documentation written....and young people guided... .....I know people relapse and leave...I could do it any second....and this would be the last time you see "this" me.....
the first time I saw it, I looked at my own face.... ....now I've seen people relapse, and come back with a chunk missing.
and it's painful. .......I learned in the class I just took.....that's where coucelors fail. they internalize the pain of the clients...and have to quit.
all I can do is be nutral... .......you can look up my posts on the board.
I never sided with anyone, and neither did some of the better people. ...it's like a religious war.....
Ah - Bella, the one Melissa wished she was. The person she tried to be on the meth boards by posting photos of someone else. She was so cute, but all such a lie that so many people on the meth board believed - and still believe.
But she had people believe the fantasy part - the internet part - the Pee Wee is Arnold part - the - my internet dick is 15 inches long part - was the reality, when in fact it was not and never was real and never intended to be real.
wrote ... Take a bow - that was quite the theatrical moment!!
back it up. .......show me why it was "theatrical"
where is the relevance to what I said. .....I don't delete my words, I stand by everything I ever wrote...unless I was wrong, and I admitted it and took it back.
I try to say things worth reading.
......and read things worth reading.
and if you ain't got an example... ......for your next "senereo" about me, I'll look right thru you.
I'm as truthful and real as it fucking gets.
........if you don't belive it.
I don't believe you.
.....it means you are'nt capable of understanding raw truth.
which means, you're full of shit. ...and never experianced it to recognise it.
Oops.. Sorry! I'm not a drug addict. I've never used drugs. I don't have a need for drugs in my life. So that makes me think...Is this about drugs? or is this about Melissa? Not all of Melissa's victims are addicts. As a matter of fact, most of her victims aren't.
...........................
Sooo.. .. um.. Kevin? Didn't YOU just try to get into Marie's Adoption Scam Yahoo group? And was denied? You wanted in why????? Are you an adoption scam VICTIM??? or did you just want to go in there and slam heartless accusations at REAL victims???
A word of advice... If people aren't REAL *ADOPTION SCAM* VICTIMS, they won't get in there. It is for healing. Nothing more!
Quote: Why do you feel the need to have to do that? Why are you not allowing the authorities and your attorney do their jobs? Seems to me what you are doing is probably not helping their investigation not to mention the FBI's.
Someone ELSE said I was trying to. I am NOT trying to convince, that was my point! DUH!
Don't you worry, the FBI and Attorneys are handling it! Too bad you're not a member or you would have known that shit!
It's my #1 priority to ensure that bitch pays for her crimes! I'm not doing anything to hinder that investigation! As the matter of fact, I was given a pat on the back by the good ole boys for what I've done!
I won't be back to this board, I don't have time for these stupid ass games. I just felt the need to let everyone know I am NOT affiliated with this board and I do NOT appreciate it being said I am! :roll:
~Some ppl are like slinkies...they don't really serve a purpose in life but bring a smile to your face as you push them down the stairs~
wrote ... If you have a website perhaps you can make a room private where all the victims can go to talk about this situation. Not only will it help with your investigation, it will help them heal and have a place for support.
I never said you endorsed it.... ......I said you thought it would help.
or did I read it wrong?
not trying to stir shit, just trying to get it strait
thrash is an admin at AM.... ....I showed him your PM to him. and he showed me what was said between you.....since it's AM buisiness. .....and to provde the link from my board.
As I said, I wish you well, we're on the same team... ........I just wanna see where I misunderstood.
I think Kevin was just trying to say why give Suzie so much shit... She has the right to believe what she wants to believe.. She has the right to say I dont want this at my board (just like Marie does and did at hers)... She has the right to still befriend Bella aka Melissa aka what ever the fuck her name is or what she wants to be called...
Personally I love Suzie to death.....
I dont know Marie well but she seems nice too...She seems like a woman scorn and in alot of pain from wanting a child she feels she was robbed off and if all the things that she is saying are true are true than rightfully so.......
I think everyone that believes things about "Bella" (we will just call her that cause typing all the others is too damn much typing) wants everyone else to believe what they believe too...
I think they are people (over the internet) that invested more into BELLA than others...These seem to be the people that want to carry on and vent and make sure that everyone else knows what they know....
Others invested their time into BELLA too but they on the other hand said it was all an internet thing (fantasy so too speakl) and they really dont care what she did or does in REAL LIFE..They dont feel cheated or scorned or burned..They dont feel anything really they just like their FANTASY friend....
I could be wrong but I think if Suzie just said okay you are right BELLA WAS/IS A FUCKING LIAR...then the people giving her shit would stop cause know they have made her a believer...
Personally I knew a while back that soemthing funny was up with BELLA..I wasnt sure quite what but I knew something was..things just kind of got all weird and out of whack....
I dont like BELLA for my own reasons...She has caused me some REAL LIFE grief....She blabbed about my (well we will just call them revealing) pics that I sent to someone...and then exposed my extra martial affair all over the internet...
But I am over that now...Cant really stay mad about things that were true and if I didnt want those things to be know then I shouldnt have told anyone or done them.....
But I can still NOT like her for the way she went about it and for the reason she blabbed.....(Something about being jealous or some shit like that which didnt make sense to me cause the girl in the pic was very pretty)...
You know the funny thing is if BELLA came back to the forums that she frequented before all was exposed and just said she lied and said why she lied..I am pretty sure everyone would forgive her and accept her for the REAL person she is..( I could be wrong but I think everyone there is pretty forgiving..I mean after all everyone has told at least one LIE in their life).....
I use to frequent Marie's board as well (LOL I am banned now).. I personally wanted to see the REAL pic of BELLA and I guess the update on whether she was arrested or not...I guess A MUGSHOT would definitely make me a TRUE believer without a shadow of a doubt..(Not that I dont believe what is being said anyway)....
I feel sorry for Marie and what she is going though..I also feel sorry for Suzie having to take so much shit and verbal attacks just because she keep internet and reality seperate and so now she doesnt feel betrayed by BELLA so she can remain "friends" with her no matter what BELLA did or did not do...
I'm shocked the FBI and your attorney have not advised you on the laws regarding slander and libel. After all "SHE" has yet to be charged with any crime let alone convicted of one.
wrote ... Too bad you're not a member or you would have known that shit!
I don't need to be a member of your board to know this. It's not that difficult.
wrote ... She has the right to still befriend Bella aka Melissa aka what ever the fuck her name is or what she wants to be called...
we are internet friends.. .....no more, no less.
I don't hate her, no.... ..........but I have no reason to.
I don't have time to scan adoption sites..... .......so I have'nt built up any, anything reading em.
I just know, she did'nt do anything on my board that I could read myself. that compared to the behavior of some others there.
I don't call her, and "work together" with her to take over the world. .....she calls me at work, about once a week, and I talk to her.
but there is no "plans" made or "secrets told" by me to her.....I don't know any secrets to tell her... ....everything she needs to know is on the internet.
basiclly, she tells me she misses the board and what she's doing now.
.....she told me, a girll named mary was taking pictures outside her house... ...........and it's posted on the net somewhere.....she saw her park on the freeway.
wow. ..obbsessive.
..........but, I talk to alot of people.....that I know nothing about, except for what they tell me.
