supposed to be anyways. So now we have to meet up and talk. Which I have no idea when that will happen, Because he's been hanging out with his friend billy all day. So I dunno.
But whatever happens, happens. I almost just want it over with and done if that's what's going to happen. It's really dumb to be waiting like this.
For some reason, I haven't really been eating.
Like. My stomach hurts. and i'll be like well it's probably cuz i'm hungry right? but then i'll eat something as little as a sandwich.. and the first bite, i'm okay second bite i'm pretty much full but I eat the rest anyways.
It's funny that you say that. Because we all think billy is secretly gay. Sure he might always be around girls and such.. But he does gay things ALL the time... He asked some guy that came into work, if the cologne he was wearing was what he thought it was... He has gone to bounce(gay club) a couple times, and swears it's to dance with girls(billy they aren't there to dance with guys) and I don't know, there's so many other things.
But Derek and I will be talking later tonight after I get off work, which is after 12:30pm.. so eh should be interesting I guess?
Alrighty. So it's been a long day let me tell ya..
So.. I got to work, everything is good. Then my mom calls work, and tells the manager that my younger sister won't be in work.. so.. My manager says.. uhmm call your mom when you get the chance, something happened to your sister.
So i'm freaking out, because they left at like 1:30pm to go the hospital. and no one called me to tell me what was going on..
All I knew is that she was having emergency suergery.. so I was like.. uhmm wtf is going on, and no one would answer or call me back.
then my dad called(who left the family early 06') asking about her, and I was like, I have no idea.
so then finally my mother calls me at like 1030pm.. so I was like okay.. what's going on? apparently her boob was infected. they thought it was cyst's but it was an infection. My mom thinks it was caused because my sister is slightly dumb and got them pierced unprofessional while drunk a couple months back not sure how long but it's been a while. So they had to drain it all out.. her boob was like 2 cups sizing bigger then the other.
so she's at the hospital for a couple days.
after that is done. I'm getting ready to get out of work.
and then I go to my car.
and can't get it to turn so I can turn it out. The key thing wouldn't turn.
So now my car is stuck at wendy's. My friend dani was nice enough to drive me to derek's house so him and I could have our talk because I honestly.. I was just in a bad mood already and knew I just needed to get this talk over with.
So. then she drops me off. and we have our talk. Bascially, His feelings still are that a relationship is not for him right now. He has a lot of things that need his full focus and attention(music and getting his life to where he wants it) so that's bascially what happened. and I was going to leave directly after that. so while I was trying to call my older sister. he was like.. can you just wait a second..? and I was like ok.
and then he was like, do you hate me?
and I was like, "derek I could never hate you" I started to ball a little bit.
Bascially he never wanted to hurt me. that is the last thing he ever wanted to do, And he has hurt me. so now he's all broke about it, and beating himself up. to the point where his stomach feels sick and all that stuff. didn't think it would effect him as much as it is..
ah.
so then. I go over to where my older sister was(across the street at her boyfriends house who is also derek's cousin.)
and.. she tells me her locks are frozen and the key won't open them and they twisted the key in trying to open the locks. and of course she doesn't have a spare.
so her boyfriend finally gets it open. and the key is all fucked up. so we still try to use it to turn her car on. it cracked in half but both half's managed to come out. yay? yea I guess.
so then we were like.. well now wtf do we do?
so I called dani, she didn't answer.
and then I called derek told him what was up. so he called his brother. which lives in the same house as my sister's boyfriend(it's a double house) and so he wakes up, then my sister's boyfriend walks in and says he got the little stub to start the car.. so. then I feel bad because now his brother has woken up for no reason. so I emailed him on myspace.
so now I'm home heartbroken.
and worrying about my car. hopefully it was just too cold and I don't have to buy anything super expensive.
becausse that right now would piss me off.
and my dad of all people is 4 hrs away in cinnitani or driving back from there to probably visit my younger sister at the hospital.
Which might mean him and his stupid girlfriend probably moved down there and he failed to mention it to me..
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you poor thing *hugs tight* , it does suck and I know it probably feels worse, at least he still cares as your friend and that he hurt you, some guys can be real dicks about these situations
Dont get me wrong, but if I was Derek and I had an attractive girlfriend with big boobs, who doesnt seem to be a cow, I wouldnt be working out my feelings. I'd be "working out" my attractive girlfriend with the big boobs.
But that's if I was Derek. Which I'm not. What I am is a dirty old Aussie.
