i actually thought seskel was gonna come to my rescue there...right. then i read the end. seriously, now...is this necessary? i didn't think the urge to read a chat convo would be so...overwhelming...
alright. it's 3:00 am here and i can't get out to my car to get my jumpdrive to upload. it's darker than pitch and borderline sub-zero. no fucking way am i venturing out there in a pair of faded OTB denims and hanes boxerbriefs.
but i'll load it tomorrow at school.
damn girl, i swear she's braindead sometimes. half the shit i said went right over her head...
Welcome to Google Talk! Katherine McKenna is online right now (online friends have a green dot). Try clicking on "Call" above to make a call. Type below and press the Enter key to send an instant message. Katherine: hi James: hi. Katherine: alright James: alright. let's get this closure thing done with... Katherine: ok just liten listen James: alright Katherine: r u talking to jm? James: no...why would i be? Katherine: i dunno James: why would you think that? Katherine: I was wondering if you had beat his face in yet cuz it sounded like you were going to do that James: not sure. Katherine: undecided ok James: yeah. pretty much. Katherine: well yeah I am sorry about what happened but James: as am i. Katherine: no u are not James: rolls eyes Katherine: I can tell u y it happened and things James: yeah, i am not sorry that you boned him ,but continue. so you can get your hypothesis out of the way so i can talk. Katherine: no hyp I have a ton to say but I am not rying to get mad at you James: i appreciate that. so just hit the main points. Katherine: well U did your thing with mel in I think it was the end of sept or beginning of oct and I did my thing in oct James: k... Katherine: and well I was still subconsicencely mad at you so I wanted you to feel how I felt about that James: i figured... Katherine: and well this is comming into a never ending cycle James: that's why im trying to end it. Katherine: and I don't aprciate you telling mel everything too well than y do u continue it...I mean how was your date with mel James: it wasn't a date. we went to the fucking movies. big deal. is it possible to go as friends? Katherine: really..... well than y did you kiss her y are just trying to get back at me u* James: lol Katherine: what is so funny James: that's not it at all. afraid you're trying to read more into it than was there Katherine: really tell me than James: chris kept nudging me when me and mel were talking. she was trying to talk so i could hear. remember how i'm half deaf? chris thought we were kissing; we kept telling her we werent. not my fault she has to get close just so i can hear her during a movie ^_^ Katherine: ok so r u going to go back out with her James: i'm not jumping for it but that doesn't mean it can't happen in the future. right now i just want to be her friend. since i couldn't do that when we were going out. Katherine: that is not true James: whatever XD you believe whatever you want to. Katherine: I wouldn't have liked it but I couldn't stop u and WILL YOU BE NICE James: i am. here's my two cents. before we were together you told me how you were afraid to get close to anyone because of how all the guys you went out with found some way to hurt yuo i had a lot of sympathy towards that. like, yeah, you went out with jm. i can see how that could happen then you said...numerous times...how you would never do anything with jm. i trusted you. yet you did. since that i couldn't look at you the same way. i tried to get over it. give me credit for at least trying most people would have never tried. Katherine: I do James: stop talking. im not done yet. Katherine: sorry go on James: you had a good thing. we. had a good thing. and the only thing that made made me leave was because you took what could have been a great relationship and flushed it down the toilet because you wanted a chance of thinking jm could be the great little boy he once was. well, this is what happens. i hope you remember this in your next relationship. because this has happened to me before, and i'm tired of lying down taking all of this shit. and all the talk of love won't erase the fact that you cared for me just enough to do fuck my best friend. while you said 'i feel uncomfortable doing stuff' you were off doing shit with jm behind my back. Katherine: I didn't love you at that time FYI James: yet still come back and say right afterward "you can trust me, james. i love you". so love is something that grows in 10 minutes, i guess. Katherine: acually if I didn't do that with jm I probably wouldn't have had the comfort to be having sex with you and no it does not well I let u get away with what you did and all and well I am sorry that you can 't get over my mistake James: oh...so i am glad my best friend could pave the way for me. you are trying to justify your mistake. and besides...it's really hard to have sex with your best friend in your head doing the same thing...in the same place. what i did was a few kisses with an ex before you an i were even together. i let it slide when i heard shit about you at work... so let's not go there. the point is there is no trust. and i will not spend the rest of my life wondering .what if it happens again?'. Katherine: u think it didn't bug me that u screwed mel James: when did i screw her? Katherine: of course it did James: hello? when? Katherine: it didn't matter it was just the thought James: the only time i did (once) was when we were going out. eight months ago. before i even knew you. get over it. i didn't let it bug me that you ate goldfish crackers off of jm's cock either before i knew you. so grow up a little. next point: Katherine: ok James: funny how you are so against anal sex....you should rethink your stance on that sometime. i've lived with being fucked in the ass for a over a month...and i want reparations Katherine: y does that bug you so much James: you should just rethink your stance on it, is all. anal isn't that big of a deal. it's probably the only hole he hasn't taken. XD Katherine: I am trying to be friends with you and save any relationship (not going out) that we have left and I don't think that is funny and by the way that is not true James: so....jm did take your ass? Katherine: no gross James: "the way that is not true" wow... Katherine: the comment about the "holes" James: so he did. Katherine: I never gave him head or anything like that and I hope that you enjoyed it while it lasted James: i tried to...as much as i could with jm's face and pimpled ass going through my head grinding you on the futon. i had a lot of fun waking up to that image. and yeah...i slept for like over ten hours after we broke up. life has been very odd...like being happy with you, yet not. Katherine: well I should have never took you on the futon James: missing the point...but when can a woman 'take' a man? Katherine: well I hope that the sleep what worth is James: still funny how many times you said you regret telling me Katherine: that is not the point and I know that James: and how few times you said you actually regret doing it. Katherine: well u know that I do regret it but I HAVE TO LIVE WITH IT James: you did a pretty good job living with it though you have to admit. Katherine: either way and all I was focused on these last six weeks was making you happy James: and you tried...i know you tried to do that. im not angry at that im just sorry that it couldn't work. Katherine: I was trying to save something and you not saying anything was not helping James: what was i to say?! 'yeah, jm's face keeps running through my mind' wee. all the talking and heart bleeding in the world wont help some stuff get better, katie. if i couldn't deal with it myself, you couldn't help much. Katherine: and when you came to break up with me you sounded like you just needed time along and then the movie thing which I found out on my own by the way and you made me feel like I was left for her....I gave up my dreams for you...and I also wanted to talk to you in person cuz it just is not the same James: maybe you were just hopeful that it could start again. i didnt leave you for anyone i left you for myself. Katherine: ok James: and your dreams...i can't count how many times i tried to do that for a woman. Katherine: I have had so many exes tell me that and I can't stand it James: well, you know the saying...if three people says it, it has to be true ^_^ Katherine: what do you mean what about the dream James: about you giving up your dreams for me... Katherine: well I did...well was James: im sure that to a point still comes back to the same thing though actions were taken that i found to be...irreconciliable thought it best to let you know before it was too late. Katherine: well after I fall for you thanks James: no problem. since you did that after i 'fell'...maybe it was only fitting. at least i didn't wait until marriage night XD Katherine: I was right James: right about what? Katherine: you would be dead James: ? elaborate ? Katherine: about the whole getting even thing well u hurt me and I hope that you are happy James: the pain is only a byproduct of the breakup i didnt do this to get even i did this so i could have some fucking peace of mind. Katherine: ok well I just want to know that u don't hate me or anything cuz the way you are talking about me James: i dont hate you. and ive been hearing stuff too Katherine: and I would really aprciate if you would not talk shit about me to mel well me to James: i don't talk shit to her Katherine: just the truth well it is really none of her business James: the truth sounds like shit too, katie. 'my exgirlfriend slept with my best friend, then tried to make it up and move on' is not a very flattering way of saying it. sorry. Katherine: I know but I am trying to get all of this drama gone and maybe still keep a friend or 2 James: i'll still be your friend dont get me wrong. but i'll still feel sore about what you did Katherine: I am sorry that you do James: yeah. Katherine: well I still want to see you later on cuz I did get u a xmas gift and I am going to give it to you in the middle of december James: ... i thought i would do that before you bought it ... Katherine: sorry it is ok I am not taking it back because I would rather you have it James: .. uh... Katherine: I do still care about you and I dont regret giving it to you James: ... Katherine: I am just sorry that I messed up well just promise me one thing James: yeah... Katherine: just please don't go out with mel cuz that would hurt me a lot I don't care about anyone else James: i cant promise who i will and wont go out with. i can promise i won't go for her exclusively.;) i just want to be alone right now. bell just rang. 252-0516. my cell. Katherine: I know well I guess that I will talk to you later James: yeah. call me when you know what's up... damn. Katherine: I hoped that we settled something sorry for doing that James: yeah. i guess. Katherine: no I really want to you call me James:uh, ok... Katherine: I will not call you because that makes me look despirt k James: k. when? Katherine: anytime and I need the charger by the way James: lol k. Katherine: ok bye James: bye.
Welcome to Google Talk! Katherine McKenna is online right now (online friends have a green dot). Try clicking on "Call" above to make a call. Type below and press the Enter key to send an instant message. Katherine: hi? James: hi. a few things i think we need to talk about...again. Katherine: yeah James: you start. anything you think i should know? Katherine: I agree but no arguing yeah James: no promises. Katherine: ok well no I am not going to say anything until u say that you are not going to argue with me James: "adult conversation". what is this i hear about 'the only reason i broke up with you is because i wasn't the one that popped your cherry' Katherine: yeah I did say that James: why? Katherine: because I acually thought that for a while James: and i actually thought that you had no feelings towards me for a while. Katherine: that was never true James: and seeing your actions i think i am right about that. Katherine: I care about you and I feel so hurt by everyone James: by the shit you keep bringing about? Katherine: I was hurt by what you did James: AND WHAT DID I DO?! Katherine: calm down I am not yelling It is hard to explain James: figure it out then. Katherine: ok James: because right now my patience is NIL. Katherine: and you think that I have any left I feel like you left me for mel James: fine. except that im not with her. i feel like you fucked me over with jm. and in the process of trying to get over it, you totally trash my dignity by talking shit over at sohi. while simultaneously claiming that you dont want to start any. your actions completely contradict what you have been telling me pretty much from the start, yet you claim to be hurt by the same shit that you brought about. Katherine: well I made a bad decison and I know that I am I don't know......I don't talk to anyone here I said something to mel and I am not talking to anyone else James: mel, crys, sheryl Katherine: I know I am bring some of it myself James: i dont know who else you've been talking to because im getting the same info from everyone! Katherine: alright I talked to cheryl James: youre bringing it ALL on yourself! you messed up. you tried to bury it without due respects. youre flinging shit. and you expect not to be victimized by this! Katherine: I think that I know that James: yet it's still going on. "our business is nobody else's business" that's what you always say yet youre constantly trying to dig up info on both me and melissa, grilling us both like convicts. Katherine: yes I realise that and I didn't mean to come off as that nevermind James: no nevermind. Katherine: anything that I say is not going to make a difference James: you will not keep running away from this, you'll keep burying yourself deeper. Katherine: then tell me what do I need to do? James: because you've been trying to avoid it it has been getting worse. my advice is to stop spreading shit about me, stop spreading shit about melissa, stop spreading shit about us (you-me) and i would recommend humbling yourself to everyone who is ridiculing you telling them how sorry you are. but i really do not think you are. at least your actions contradict what you tell me. so. you are losing any respect anyone had for you me,jm, chrys,mel,rena and anyone else i forget you are throwing your dignity away becuase of one mistake. and im getting slammed because of it. Katherine: nobody ever had an respect for me anywazs James: they did, believe it or not but you. go. around. shooting. it. down. because of stuff like this. so i will make this very, very, very, VERY simple to understand. okay? Katherine: I think that I do already James: If. You. Keep. Trying. To. Dig. Into. My. Life And. If. You. Keep. Spreading. Shit I. Will. Bury. You. In. Shit. no jokes. i like you, katie. i really do. but i will not be made a stooge. i will make your life hell before i let your fuck-up make my life miserable. are we crystal clear? completely? no shit? no lies? Katherine: yes I understand James: okay. good. now that im throughly pissed, let's try to talk about something else before i blow up on your ass.
cut to later...
James: until the next time i hear something Katherine: and trying to get you to calm down this won't go away in a day James: i am as calm as you should expect, considering your actions. it would go away faster if you wont prolonge it. Katherine: I will just stop saying stuff I won't James: and if you are sorry (which i am starting to doubt) then tell everyone you are sorry for doing what you did. Katherine: I am trying to save whatever I have left James: then suck up. for the love of god, suck up. becuase you have a lot of makeup to do with a lot of people because of this. because there isn't much left to save, katie. Katherine: I know James: and i hope you have figured out who is to blame for this. Katherine: I was stupid, mad and hurt and those are not a good combination James: nods just ask people around here. ask them how much shit i talked about you. Katherine: no I will not James: because you know the answer. Katherine: that is just futhering the situation no James: lol Katherine: acually I don't James: okay then lol XD Katherine: so we are cool then? James: not yet time will tell Katherine: good enough considering James: i've been very forgiving, you know...so yeah. good enough...considering. Katherine: I will talk to mel and say sorry James: and apologize, perhaps? yeah. that would be a good idea. Katherine: I was getting to that but I will not talk to jm James: shrugs dont have to. Katherine: well u mentioned him James: he already compares you to the bubonic plague. nothing you do will change that. Katherine: he always has James: yet. you. fucked. him. anyways. Katherine: I know James: i just cant understand it . Katherine: because I am stupid and the subject is droped y remember randy don't you James: uh...the subject is dropped when i say it is dropped. not. before. remember that in the future. and yes, i know randy. don't tell me...you did him too? Katherine: ok yes james ur joking right? James: unless you are serious. Katherine: gross.... I can't believe that you said that James: you said that about (who?!) when we were first together...**cough JM cough** Katherine: yeah I know I have good memory James: yeah. Katherine: there ok James: so go on about randy. Katherine: you didn't say anything James: so go on about randy. Katherine: he is moving to anchorage James: okay... there's a moral here, right? Katherine: moral? ? James: just thought there was more to the story... you know, like "the first piggy made his house out of straw. the end" Katherine: yeah but there is a teacher like right next to me lol nice story James: bout as nice as "little randy moved to anchorage. the end" Katherine: lol I guess well he wants to move somewhere warm too but he can't right now James: ah Katherine: we were joking last night James: yeah? Katherine: about moving down there James: yeah? Katherine: and I told him...we had been talking about it James: yah? Katherine: and that he can move with me and I told him that we can be girl friends James: um...right. so Jm turned you lez? is that what i am hearing? Katherine: and he was being stupid and said that sounded kinky.. yea he did James: but randy's got a cock too so it's all good. Katherine: I don't want to know what else he has James: but im sure you know already...since he told you and all. Katherine: and I was just like alright we can be gf James: im just curious where he has the equipment. Katherine: yeah I do James: i mean, inside the labia, outside... Katherine: I am not going to find out James: lol right... Katherine: and then he was just like I was just kidding and I told him that I was to James: oh might be weird seeing my ex with a tranny. Katherine: you are kidding right James: though not much would be worse than what you already did. Katherine: he wants to be a chick u know that was with the whold gf thing whole James: yeah i know Katherine: please don't say that ever again James: lol okay Katherine: thankd thanks can't type anymore it is all your fault James: why is it my fault Katherine: I dunno but I could figure it out if I thought long enough James: lol okay...blondes... Katherine: acually it was funny when randy went into the dumpster James: ..... "ooh, here's a bottle!"... ew. Katherine: gross James: gross. Katherine: lmao he mad such a girly fuss made James: right tell him to cowboy up or you'll kick him in the... Katherine: it was funny James: uh... you'll kick his...um... yeah... Katherine: don't finish that gross. James: what? Katherine: didn't want to read taht that James: i have no reason to not be a smartass Katherine: ok I guess u can be a smartass towards me James: nods glad i have your permission. Katherine: since when have you needed it James: never really asked Katherine: I know just adding stuff James: yeah.
note: randy is the local tranny...just so you know. not many people know he's hung both ways, but most do know he wants to be a woman. go figure. :roll: katie's pissed off because i took another woman to the movies and we happened to fuck...while some of katie's friends were there. apparently pissed katie off real bad.
